scrinshut

i kind of feel jealous for alot of reasons... luckily i dont go taking it seriously... its the type of jealousy where as you suddenly feel so down and useless its kind of senseless to... neh... when i feel deep emotions it strikes me that some times i loose any way of wording it out...

been busy with work lately, personal comics, paying job, trying my best to finish those x-mas dolls (sorry no proof yet)

yeh just two things to do, i'm done with the billboard for the client *phew*

anyway, i hope in the near future i could still give time to alot of things, like my comics and its story, the other comics from OTL that i'm still figuring out how to speed the progress, the story i'm writing, the teen detectives which would be the main series of OTL (aaaaaaugh!!!). this isn't planning... i'm listing all the possible things that could kill me, and its not even complete yet. sigh~

still i'm glad i could do these things, thank God for all these blessings~~

just a random thought

but so far i feel like im having a random conflict, whether the girl from the manga i have read (kuragehime) will ever fall in love with the cross dressing best friend... i mean its possible she might, the thing is he might not answer back her feelings... oh well... i vie for them both i just wish they wont have anything to interfere... i wish they'd have mutual feelings but both of them are just to thickly insensitive to tell each other... sigh, worrying about an imaginary other peoples love life... i feel so un human

new story blog

... because i want to archive the story i made in chapter form... its public though~

a bat story, made by fancykosher~

gonna post that girlie song

this one is the full version~~


this ones the tv version with the animation with it XD

just listening to some music

recently just been listening to new songs i found from an anime named Kuragehime~~ it kind of gets me into such a nice mood since i also like the anime it came from, originally its a manga i found in mangafox~~~ really fun to read and i like the main character who is an otaku of jellyfishes and loves to draw as well~~~~ i also like the side character who is the crossdressing guy of the group, he claims he's straight though, i dunno i wish him and the main girl would have a cute romance but it would just be adhering the main plot of everything which is to focus on the drama of their lives (wow its like romance is not part of lifes drama!)



well i sort of did get a chance of encounter with the manga BECAUSE its a genderbender genre-d read, i like genderbender... i dunno... i guess the fact that my mindset is that im a girl but im a guy as well keeps on being stabbed in my mind... i mean i can't shake it out of my head since im already 21 and thinking like that just feels weird... EVEN THOUGH I KNOW THERE ARE LIKE ALOT OF PEOPLE LIKE ME... well im not closed to any possibilities of change, i wont care about that for now since i have to only think of what should be the things that can help me live in this world, and help other people as well ... that kind of thinking will just come randomly in the sidelines~~

niweis its a really nice read and funny... i hope i get to finish it till the end XD