back from the dead

maaan did i miss writing stuff online i mean really now... i was on a three day vacation somewhere in the local and prolly would be nice if there were other things to do aside from enjoying the tour and view, things to do that i am really interested in... really... i already killed two books on our way on the first day that by the end of that night i simply said to myself that morning that came after that... oh hell might as well enjoy the tour instead of being such a loner kill joy...

well to top this off here are tiny proofs of the vacation through pictures taken by yours truly by phone...

ze sisters bf ^^^^^^

ze sister^^^^

see i was there~~ took em pictures with my self-bought phone... oh the top two pictures were the view on the place we stayed in nice eh small garden to the ocean shore... it goes high tide in the morning but low tide at night... its really nice :D

the rest of the pictures i took with my own cam that i brought with during our trip... though i loved the part where we were looking over alot of natural and beautiful un-city-nized places... like the forests and that man made forest we passed by on the way or after we went to the chocolate hills site...

really its the best place i'd love to build my house... in the middle of huge man planted trees in the middle of a high way far away from civilization... the best place to stay and rot... at least i could give myself net in that place... but it'll be damn expensive DX

that educational butterfly park... where i found that lovely word gy---nodite something... butterflies that have both genders of male and female only they cant produce like a hermaphrodite... stuff...

well i learned alota things that i have completely stored in my wee box of stored knowledge... its a good thing actually... it felt expensive though cause the two (mah sis and her bf... mostly her bf) bought alota stuff on almost every shop we passed by on the tour...

i kept myself from killing him but he's not that close to me to be killed... all in all i liked it, it was fun grazing around and looking at some sky with no buildings covering it... the best...

it must be tiring

it is actually the few days ive missed the internet i have spent dilly dallying over my friends on an occasion we should often do... or atleast make of something... i dont know if i got anything from it... i got completely tired... and i have a picture of me as an evidence sigh... i am completely defenseless in front of them...

anyway i know in the innards of my very internal organs through its viral cells down to the most invisible particles the soul can be that she's not being completely reliant and confident of what is to come and is her self... its saddening that maybe i just want to know what it is... but ive given respects therefore i wont be asking much...

while i on the other hand wants to waste all my life imagining and trying my best to love the things i want and need to love... like the comics im making or the story im writing the dialogs and all that supporting im giving my friend with... i need to find a way for her, a way to help her atleast... i want her parents to realize that not all things can go badly... its hard because my parents themselves where the one to realize it... its setting someone free thats really hard at some point...

but eventually in the end when everything will be gone and they have all moved on even without me... i guess i'd smile and say id hogged them far too long and when they really need to go on even death could not stop me from saying i would be sad but i would be happier than when they have decided to move and never forget about who or what i am...

until the day comes that i would be the one to leave and never forget... i should be the one to stay and would never be forgotten... just simple as that... romantic is a way ain't it...

Baby(justine bieber) by Charice

well its really a last song syndrome type of song of Bieber the boy wonder with such a femininely like 'wonderful ' voice... as i see from this point of view, a partially skeptical and void of popular stuff person... so far i dont hate the song nor i love it... i like it just the way it is rhythmic-ly exhausting repeatedly in ones brain... but this version of the world renowned child singer through some runner up contest suddenly became big like the sun star because of good pr and manager skills, Charice Pempenco (hope i spelled it right) sang it quite well and i'm glad to say she sang it the way she should and didn't at least kill it... though i feel frustrated when she say the "oooh" and "noooo" part ... i dunno must be the way i see her mouth do the O with er some lower lip of hers bending inside... *thinks* well just sharing this modern day popular teen sensational song to my blog...

always a random thought

it always is... i mean if i wanted to cry... i would have cried but i can't i don't know why... i feel so crazily confused of things right now... it's amusing hahahaha i know theres something wrong but the way i cope with it involves just letting me habitually go crazy happy over things... its messy shit... i know it's all confusing un-confident thoughts... its all jumbled up into ulterior wires of sorts and i'm not even helping to untangle it... theres something disturbing inside of me, am i excited, am i supposed to be saddened, intimidated, angry, jealous, mainly i would be confused... i mean really confused and tired of it... it's just really unfair if you look at it but what why how should i keep on being a darned alive person...

god character design

got time to finish the designs for the god characters in the comics :D but yata heres the final draft but will not be showing any kind of progress here such as colored as i am seriously finishing the comics... so tadaloo keyboard for now..

loads of stuff

since i did say i'm soon going to post stuff for my comics "God's attempt..." here it is as promised *drum roll* a small sketch of my two main chars :D both of them are females but physically one of them lacks the ... hormone growth to be a female... but they are both female and i tell you both of them are just.. don't mind the bug in the middle i was practicing how to make a bug that eats alot of human rotting flesh ... ventually all i can do is make a fat cute one... the other heroine who's as dead as a duck is the curly haired one on the left she's the one being chased in the whole story... makes life happier if she was still alive then...

next ones some minor practice for the god's but ventually i ended up just doing one practice of it... it's pretty hard to make a monster thats smoother than any other lizard with armor that defied the medieval norms... did i mention that... they are as thin as any arm i could possibly draw and are capable of other stiff things... because personally im having a hard time making proper joints... but i did start practicing on the heroines face... yes that short haired guy looking face with wide eyes ... yeah thats my heroine...





this ones a sample of the setting or just a sample of the pillar... actually i'm opting the setting to be a forest at first but thought make it more symbolical by mixing tower type buildings with squarish windows with random human shaped shadows peeking on through them while there were some stray trees... to give it more like what the gods dont care feel of where they battle...pretty busy putting on squares and ink around it plus messy much

finally a sneak peek on the frst spread page i made... still messy though... i haven't moved on to the second page but i scheduled it this night but so far all i did was play Pet Forest which by the way is good and cute...play the game and view the pics good day :D

but there sure is+lucky by britney tribute

just finished the first page spread sheet of my comics draft that i've been planning to finish ... yaaaaaay... so far i can't show any evidence that it is finished but still i'll be cheering on myself so far and will be sketching on the second page soon...

so instead of posting about it i'll be posting about the song Lucky by the one and only Britney Spears *bgm: cheers of crowd* weeehooo!!! NOW... it's been playing in my head since awhile ago and thought how overly infamous have been the acts of brit since the last time i heard, although i know she's doing fine and that she's trying her best to live normally while making money now with concerts and alot of other singles she must be making right now this was one of the songs i liked... alot... ever since she came...

although i have been LSS-d (last song syndromed) with alot of the singles she made, this just proves her tiny voice is such a dragging force of such popular claims to have to make me remember over and over her songs... this was one song above all that she made that i really liked... i also liked the essence of the song itself, not overly romantic and just not too ambitious... just stating the overly obvious...

about fame and the what not... i'm not saying it's a sincere song from her heart or anything, that i could not possibly know... but seriously i still liked her then when she still had the essence of sweetness or sweetness was over that, before she got herself, corrupted or something... this statement maybe pure but if i were a guy i would still love the sweet brit more than the daring one now... she's talented and she's over doing herself too much before she got her babies... but for a better turn in life she'd learn it i guess... it's like she's living the song in a much more traaaaaaaaaagic way than it should be during those infamous times...

being overly dramatic

there are just some times that i can't keep up with scheduling myself ... i need to constantly remind myself that i need to do this not because i have to and that its very heavy obligation that needs further sitation of a responsible person but because i want to and i feel too... its not just a job... i'm creating a kid...

seems like its been obsessing week

its fine if i just keep elementarily spotted on one place and smudging my bludgeoned head aching mind to just stay still while a pulsatingly splatter its remains somewhere and everywhere else but seriously... while cyberslacking and minding my fucking brain to stop throbbing from overly hammering some kind of pestering sickness inside of it... like some worms eating inside it... ugh... i would mind i ti stopped... i might want it checked... ugh... i feel so paranoid... PARANOID...

oh and since i already posted this might as well add that I MUST WORK ON SELLING THAT FRIGGIN LAPTOP!!! AUGH!!!!

this was random

I am currently talking to my friend Meh right now and was inquiring about elections day, she was telling me about the lines and all thats taking time and randomly posted a SoFA Manila thing and was kind of checking it out right now... although it's interesting i don't think this kind of thing is meant for me right now since i'm short of money and i'm saving money to buy some of the techies i need in life... a.k.a laptop... can't work without it ehehehe... heh

well its a close call now only a few more K's and i'm right there on the doorstep... its just i'm also searching for a new job and its pretty hard to search for one... really...

but oh well who said i can't go and have fun in the middle of it... i am now currently browsing over The Ink Squad site that my sister passed by on an ad in an airline magazine my mom bought home from her vacation in cebu... wait bacolod... hahahahah... hah... it's an interesting site and alot of people must be posting there works here and printing those shirts and selling online... its a good business... and i'm kind of brimming with ideas that can be submitted so i'm currently abusing the techies in the office while doing my job so that i could do one gehehehe... (the ink squad site: see photo no.3 fig.3... see that big bird... and the words the.ink.squad. ... yeah thats the one)

while waiting for a miracle on some other things i have now been brought back to reality... will be submitting no soon than this week by waiting if i can muster up the courage to bring or use my mouse to illustrate of puto shop... but oh well it's interesting and it pays... have to do my best...

im enjoying the fishes

yes those fishes there on the right hand corner of my blog... yes i'm just enjoying giving them there crappy orange food... it's just i'm sure some other people do enjoy clicking on them and watching them eat those yummy morsels like real lives fishies should when they see potential food on the surface not minding over feed...

playing Sacred Seasons2

Sacred Seasons

curently i've been playing the second version of the game Sacred Seasons, or second installment what ever works... when i first played the game was on Kongregate which is a site for gamers... hmmm it's sort of like Mochi games site but i don't remember what their site's called anymore... i used to play Arcuz there before i ended up engrossing myself on some stuff at work since i can't concentrate well if i play and do stuff on work at the same time...

i was on a whim and search of a good mmo game thats browser based and stumbled on it while browsing through the mmo category... it kind of got into me but never enjoyed clicking all through the whole game, if only they made shortcut keys and stuff... its quite got a little low grade animation for the games sake but it was okay for a flash game, though it kept on bringing me pain in the ass... since i have difficulty adapting and leveling my character cause of the low experience they give and the premium or special items are acquired only by gold... i still think its a good game

Sacred Seasons 2 got better graphics than the other one, with a somewhat same game play but pretty impressive development of about everything from character design(tiny bit) to the mapping of the places(alot) and alot of easier quests and good rewards... except still since this game is still is its in beta state there are still minor adjustments that should be automatically done... i wont be stating any aside for the unequip button... i am still bitter about it and other monster dying glitches... it still works fine...

over all its a good browser based mmo to play but ofcourse you'd have to have all the patience of a true bummed out nothing to do gamer to reach more than 30 lvls in this beta game...

aside from that "God's failed attempt at Mercy" comic panel thumbnails are finished and later on i will be posting the scribly thumbnails and some other character design for the two kids and the two creatures involved in the story... I WILL DO IT CAUSE I WANT TO!!!! RAAAAAAAAAH

pre-productions and attempts

i'm starting my day thinking of some stuff for a comics i plan on illustrating without any formal story written for it... it should be called whim... im at a whim on it... since its taking some time to make our one shot short story for "orz" which we have no formal title yet... i will be proceeding in making a one shot for "orz" since co-worker shiyami is still on the hold for her detective romance story... i can't contact her much and to think of it maybe i shud text her right now that we should me this saturday...

for further introductions i won't be making any but will be posting a said preliminary draft for the supposed cover as part of the comics... which is here on the right side ^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^

its kind of failed of some sorts since i didn't really intend to color it through h2o color... it was more like a wasted experiment... but i like the way the eyes were done and thats a first for it... so far the plan is to maintain the traditional bnw quality in this one shot practice... i already have a vague story for it, right now in my head, and is quickly thumbnailing the whole story into parts and panels so far i plan it short clean and sad... the titles called "God's failed attempt at Mercy" story about friends who got caught up between a battle of two gods near the mountains where one of the friends supposedly lost her way or got lost... so far it would only just consist of fight scenes and sad revelations for the friends... and in the end both die because of the 2 gods failing to give mercy to the things around them... selfish eh... there really is no point its just I WANT TO MAKE A FIGHT SCENE ... and the "orz" one shot is my big excuse LOLz

anyway i'm beginning to get tired of Shiyami's side of work since its pretty long since i last had the heart to but I WILL NOT FAIL... i resolved to myself that i won't give up in making comics even though i lack a huge amount of experience but that is not an excuse to not excercise my skills in illustration and creating stories in my mind... I DON'T WANT IT TO DIE ... i have to i just can't feel relaxed and ... relaxed if i don't do it... it feels so much in my blood...