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Monday, December 20, 2010

new decade

and a new series to watch~


yep, you got that right, it's Gundam Wing, a fairly old series from the ninties~

i grew up getting the privilege to watch this on TV here in our country, of course not in the original language it was first recorded and released. still i get a second chance, which is right now hahahaha.

anyway its one of the most criticized series as well, i think, anyway i don't care i like watching it again. for the memories also, and besides that i've been downloading it for quite some time now and not like Remy Nobodys Girl it took him more than three days to complete, at least like a week or more, which was quite depressing. i actually gave up being excited midway and rarely checked on it since it took so long too download, but of course i didn't stop downloading it.

i actually downloaded in between the download a few manga's to keep me company with the SUPER LONG wait. well not just in a kaput sort of instance, but still to keep me company. so there after a long wait this morning of the first day of 2011, the first decade of the millenia, it finally finished downloading. just in time for the new year and something new to preoccupy me~

of course i have to work on my comics and work as well, but it isn't bad to take a breather and watch something so dear to me from my childhood days~~ right?

of course, sorry for not making this such a nice review like article for Gundam Wing from the 90's, since i don't really intend to review a story or anime genre i am not really that much knowledgable at. although come to think of it most of the anime's i downloaded and kept in my storage comprises mainly of war, violence, action, and a bit of drama. of course ROMANCE will not be ignored, romance is still there, but it so subtle sometimes it isn't even there.

okay, enough about me talking about useless things, so for an ending treat have some cake along with the five main~


while i satisfy myself with watching the series again.

(random rant: i need to learn how to make a nicer and more interesting entry. *shakes head* my conversations with my friends are much more interesting.)


Thursday, December 9, 2010

book rereading feature: Howl's Moving Castle


eventually i've been pretty uppity with wanting to buy a new book so here i just resolved into rereading an old book in my shelf~ the first Hayao Miyazaki movie i liked since i found the world of Ghibli Studio, Howl's Moving Castle, its kind of a fantasy romance in the movie and so is the same in the book~~ but i really like the characters when i discovered the book that i became a fan of Jones hihihihihihihihi i've started to like her works that is why i've started to go and hunt some of the good books she's got~

i've already got other three books under her name and all three are really nice works themselves, (augh it gives me chills hearing the english dub of the movie hahahaha) i feel so inspired when ever i remember about her works since i like adventure and fantasy, just i don't get how to put romance properly...

so every time i go and make a story the best romance i could ever put in it is the romance between loyal friends and comradeship and the nearest thing i could put in the idea of romance in a story, liking... yes liking someone... that is all... and always being there for each other... that...

well anyway here's a small opinion i have between the book and the movie, i think i like the book much better AHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!
i completely do not know why, i mean Howl's book persona is just grandly rude and charming and completely spoiled!!! i like that, i mean it feels like he was much more the Howl that chased girls for being silly headed about love than the calm and gentle one in the movie, yes i find him calm and sensitive except for their vain part, BOTH OF THEM ARE VAIN!!!

Sophie in the book is completely hard headed, generous, busy body, bossy woman, who shifts her mode of kindness to reasonable and unreasonable just like an uppity woman indeed, she is actually magical in the book, almost unseen talent in the movie. she can actually give a sort of charm on anything. and its a good thing that both of them in the movie are both strong willed, except i find the Sophie in the book much more silly... i think i like that silly part of her best.

the plot in the book is so radically constructed, its not my first time to encounter a book like this but its nice and cool. the story of the movie i find it kind of typical, but it couldn't be helped in my opinion to string the book into a movie it would probably like take two hours to really sum it all up or more and its really bad to miss out all the good details tha tthe story had to be reconstructed but still retaining some of the parts of the book at least.

i give this book 9 stars and the movie 9 hehehehe but then i would give them both 10 cookies for the best fantasy, romance i have read~~ i'm weird that way.

THIS BOOK I RECOMMEND!

Sunday, December 5, 2010

double effort max

currently i have been focusing on completing the children of eternal spring dorr knocker pendant, HI quest m character, its been long since i wanted to start an official webcomics aside from that other one related to OTL its pretty nerve wracking hard and bland to start it alone since i have nothing but myself to judge my own work think of ideas and concepts by myself and continue to suck at being a properly decided person...

but i have been blessed to be stubborn and head on stupid in attacking on wards and thinking little of any proper plan... of course i thought of a plan its just somehow half way through it... it suddenly got a little wee vague. but now my focus is to finish all the scenes that i have currently finished... making ... its pretty slow since internet suddenly became my blood again, sewing some tiny murdered looking dolls that i made to add to the gifts i was supposed to give to y friends this x-mas...

anyway i just am passing by to post this fact in this blog, also to update the OFFICIAL webcomic...

Children of the Eternal Spring: ch.1 Missing Door Knocker Pendant

its a violent, fantasy, drama, action type of story, basically has tons of loopholes in it... but that is what makes it a good thing... there are tons of loop holes in it...

note:
line art& comics: fancy kosher
colour: kaijerk

Wednesday, December 1, 2010

rasputina

just download a bunch of rasputina songs~~~ i'm listening to it right now and i must say... damn they gots good fingers man

Wednesday, November 17, 2010

scrinshut

i kind of feel jealous for alot of reasons... luckily i dont go taking it seriously... its the type of jealousy where as you suddenly feel so down and useless its kind of senseless to... neh... when i feel deep emotions it strikes me that some times i loose any way of wording it out...

been busy with work lately, personal comics, paying job, trying my best to finish those x-mas dolls (sorry no proof yet)
yeh just two things to do, i'm done with the billboard for the client *phew*

anyway, i hope in the near future i could still give time to alot of things, like my comics and its story, the other comics from OTL that i'm still figuring out how to speed the progress, the story i'm writing, the teen detectives which would be the main series of OTL (aaaaaaugh!!!). this isn't planning... i'm listing all the possible things that could kill me, and its not even complete yet. sigh~

still i'm glad i could do these things, thank God for all these blessings~~

Wednesday, November 10, 2010

just a random thought

but so far i feel like im having a random conflict, whether the girl from the manga i have read (kuragehime) will ever fall in love with the cross dressing best friend... i mean its possible she might, the thing is he might not answer back her feelings... oh well... i vie for them both i just wish they wont have anything to interfere... i wish they'd have mutual feelings but both of them are just to thickly insensitive to tell each other... sigh, worrying about an imaginary other peoples love life... i feel so un human

Monday, November 8, 2010

new story blog

... because i want to archive the story i made in chapter form... its public though~

a bat story, made by fancykosher~

Tuesday, November 2, 2010

gonna post that girlie song


this one is the full version~~


this ones the tv version with the animation with it XD

Monday, November 1, 2010

just listening to some music

recently just been listening to new songs i found from an anime named Kuragehime~~ it kind of gets me into such a nice mood since i also like the anime it came from, originally its a manga i found in mangafox~~~ really fun to read and i like the main character who is an otaku of jellyfishes and loves to draw as well~~~~ i also like the side character who is the crossdressing guy of the group, he claims he's straight though, i dunno i wish him and the main girl would have a cute romance but it would just be adhering the main plot of everything which is to focus on the drama of their lives (wow its like romance is not part of lifes drama!)



well i sort of did get a chance of encounter with the manga BECAUSE its a genderbender genre-d read, i like genderbender... i dunno... i guess the fact that my mindset is that im a girl but im a guy as well keeps on being stabbed in my mind... i mean i can't shake it out of my head since im already 21 and thinking like that just feels weird... EVEN THOUGH I KNOW THERE ARE LIKE ALOT OF PEOPLE LIKE ME... well im not closed to any possibilities of change, i wont care about that for now since i have to only think of what should be the things that can help me live in this world, and help other people as well ... that kind of thinking will just come randomly in the sidelines~~

niweis its a really nice read and funny... i hope i get to finish it till the end XD

Tuesday, October 19, 2010

this has gotta be

the most annoying part of my life, the fact that every year there is that one point there that i get totally sick for eating something or doing something stupidly bad for my health, is really getting on my nerve this week... its been bugging me okay, and the fact that it takes my concentration away from those things i need to focus on more makes it really top of the line worthy of my complaining... although i whine more than i complain that is...

Wednesday, October 13, 2010

really now

i have been sick or was sick this week and its giving me the hardest time to cope up specially since the sickness was targeted at my tummy. i felt weak thru any pain felt on the inside, poison and any inflicted pain may be traumatizing for me but i guess i forget it once i let time slip by and deal with it like normally with added tiny precautions.

Tuesday, September 28, 2010

Tapeta chapter 2: felt unlucky

there was a thing called wednesdays are the worst of the days ever born, it seemed that on that day you would more often encounter black cats on your way to work and home, land on your butt more than you needed when ever you pass by a broken mirror just to see that beautiful lady on your office and feel the wrath of all living creatures born to be possibly nasty and bitchy on your young age. of course on accounts of those unlucky things being done on just one day, there is absolutely no proof that that day has stopped more lives, from continuing, than anything in the world.


there is just enough time to finish the day and the library was about to close, Tapeta who simply borrowed a book, entitled: Star Wars for Dummy's, which she didn't even read since she was never a fan of was on the verge of a 20 bucks fine for not returning it in time. her burdensome back pack not helping her for decreasing her speed has just found her self face to face with the empty corridor to the doors of the library. just a few steps away and she would have succeeded in her mission that took most of her under-exercised legs life when she saw the student librarian helper locking the doors.

skidding to a wonderful steady skater boy like stop, the noise from the friction of her rubber shoes to the floor felt so piercing in the ears that she had to momentarily squint through the pain. once she had found it safe to open her eyes, and ears, her vision welcomed the sober looking boy from the faculty room. his face looking a little pale, his one eye awfully twitching with the reddish pain. he smelled a little awful but it must be because he was sweating, sweating in the middle of a cold 8 o'clock night in the library?

"ahm... you're that girl." he said a little weak, it was obvious that something had happened to him so horrible that made his voice hoarse.

there was this momentary pause on a persons head thinking whatever they needed to respond, she wanted to respond rudely but it kind of felt wrong, seeing as he looked quite shy and reluctant. "yes i am that girl."

it was definitely an awkward thing for the guy as he seemed to feel trapped in a corner, even though his mouth struggle a twitching smile. Tapeta on the other hand just made a lazy nod smile combination.

"could you excuse this one time with this book." she hurriedly said to avoid having that ultimate silence prolonged. "i really, really don't have 20 bucks in my allowance, in fact i couldn't spare it. the teacher said i could borrow it up until the end of seven days but its already the seventh and i didn't remember it not until science class. had to hurry to a pay phone and call my mother, so basically long story short, i had to go through blood guts and needles just to return this."

finishing her words by showing that yellow book with the epic icon of wheezing evil force Darth Vader, behind tiny images of Han Solo, Princess Lea, Luke and a bunch of photoshopped images to look into one decent image cover related to Star Wars. relevantly he was familiar with it, but he looked like he wasn't a definite fan, words be true he wasn't. he'd have read it before though since he's given quite alot of time with him self and the library.

"guess i could let you slip just this once." he told her as he reached for the book. he inspected the library card at the back of the book and went back inside, "but i suggest you wait for it to finish. you might not know if i'm really clearing your name or not."

looking around her and seeing how grim the open lights of the corridors were to her aware mind of the dark night outside she insisted upon herself to enter the library, even though she was on her full guard. you could never tell what a person is like, even if he looked like he was oppressed ten folds by some unknown force. a constant reminder to a person living in a world more dangerous than the star wars world.

libraries were considered creepy by students, specially at the wake of the night. towering shelves that made it looked like maze walls hindering your line of sight to the goal which was the end of the room, the opposing wall. books that made small tiny spaces to peek through the darkness of the nooks and crannies that existed between the shelving room and its occupants. tiny non-existent windows, since the libraries location was between the school gyms firewall and at the back of the school building.

there are two floors for the library, the other one like a viewing balcony consisting of older books and files from the school since God knows when archives and the normal library which is where they were located on the ground floor. the boy sat behind the reception desk which was located at the center of the room, where the only light source came from. it was bright and reassuring, but it didn't reach all those corners that the dark seemed to have crept from.

"could you edit the time when i gave it back?" Tapeta asked as she laid down her bag on the table as she watched him type on the computer, her eyes nervously surveying the dark.

he looked up at her and smiled that smile of his where you were wondering so suddenly what ever you did wrong to him. was it his way to make her feel guilty for returning that book late in the evening, where everyone's already gone and the only existing people in the school were those sports club outside, some responsible students, the janitor and the responsible teachers. even though the school had too much space to spare for its too many students,once they leave it , itfeels really large and intimidating.

"on second thought, why don't you just leave the time be. you know, maybe i could start sparing that 20 bucks. its just 20 bucks."

"no its okay, i'm already done anyway. just, next time don't forget to return the books you borrow earlier, Tapeta." he told her a little like it was something a motherly librarian would say to any kid.

"yeah," she said, plus. "could i ask you something really important?"

"okay?"

"whats your name?"

his silence must have been the best silence she'd seen. so far his face hadn't printed such a shock, she could have guessed a thousand reasons why, but nothing would actually come up into her mind since she herself has no idea what ever ran into his mind. one thing was really evident, at the time being, it felt like it was his first time to be asked what his name was. was she missing something in the world these days, is asking someone a very normal question such as asking about there name that a big deal it needed someone to react like so.

"sorry was the question really that bad?" she asked him, totally curious of his reason.

"no, no." his face hiding the fact that his voice sounded excited and happy. "i'm Solemi. my name is Solemi. i'm a year older so don't mind calling me whatever you want, you can definitely call me whatever you want."

"doesn't that work a bit the other way around. you should be able to call me any names since, you know, i'm younger."

"really? i don't mind. it's alright!!" suddenly snickering like a hyena to himself then reverting back to normal, "we should leave now. the janitor checks in at eight to see if there are students still in the library so we don't want to be mistaken for thieves."

"good idea, i don't feel happy being inside a creepy dark room." said Tapeta to him finally just chewing on his shocked expression and resolving on exiting the lair of the night library.


Tapeta insisted on walking home with him and waited for a few minutes to a door that is in direct view of his locker, although she didn't waste any time watching him waste his time in fixing his things getting them done and fading away. she was busy texting Henryeta that she was hoping she could copy her assignment in math tonight, being neighbors with a good studious friend is a good thing, specially in times of need when you feel lazy on learning on your own. but having a mother that worked at night might be another reason having a studious friend for a neighbor be a good thing.

before she could even make another message after sending the previous one she heard a loud cry from inside, her speed was good enough that her face slammed on the closing half of the double door that it stopped itself from closing properly. nursing her aching nose her eyes caught a few boys, probably from a higher batch poking fun at Solemi while he was trying his darnedest best to run away.

"good day Solemi, so hows the essay going? hope you don't let us down, i mean you don't want us to loose our chance to play on the field right? besides were paying you nicely. those extra cash your earning is helping you right? so hope we're not disturbing you or anything." said the one she recognized as Levin, to the eyes of many he may look completely sporty and normally good looking. though some would say he's got a few points down for a certain part of his personality, it seems like most girls seem to not care about it, must be the 'i know he's got a kind side' excuse.

of course all the timid like Solemi can do is sort of cower, a bit like hiding only it was a fail. "i thought those were due at the end of the week, i still haven't done most of it?"

"which ones? mine or there's??" asked Levin pointing to his comrades.

"hey, i paid first i should get mine earlier!"

"shut up, you borrowed money from me. you shouldn't be asking to have yours early."

"come on lets just finish this will you i have a date with that hot new girl in our cheer leading squad."

"oh hell yeah that girl with brown eyes, god her body's like a cloud nine waiting for me."

"shut up!" said Levin amidst his friends enjoying themselves at the sole idea of having fun.

"i'll give it tomorrow. promise!!" he said to him raising his left hand as an oath.

"use your right moron!" said one of them and pulled the other hand away from clutching his bag. the bag fell flat on the floor as he looked like a cactus with his hands both stuck in the air. waiting to be pulled down by his puny willed arms.

the rest of them left before Levin said "hey, heard bout that stunt you did with the trophy case. you know your worse than us. blaming a kid for your own fault. pretty cowardly ain't it, and your saying making you do these home works unfair. dude we're paying you, you should be grateful you have more than the income you should have."

savoring the effect of his last words to Solemi, who looked like he was about to burst in shame, he left him standing hands raised like a coat hanger waiting for coats and hats to hide his miserable existence. long before he could even find a way to make himself feel even more miserable than he should be there came the young girl Tapeta. her black eyes looking at him, it wasn't showing any thing but the fact she saw everything.

"you could probably use someone to talk to." she told him as she picked up his bag and put his jacket on top of his head, "and something, like a pipe wrench, to put those arms down."

evidently wednesdays weren't as unlucky as it seems, and at that time Solemi was glad he was oppressed.

Monday, September 27, 2010

Tapeta chapter 1: was all a lie

time runs faster when you feel like flying out on to space. your mind drifts backward like so, one step, two steps, and it suddenly feels like you made it forward than back. don't anybody think in this world that its much better to take three steps slower than five steps faster?

Tapeta, a normal kid sitting on a chair on a fine afternoon, would have enjoyed her stay if she weren't in the middle of detention. tapping her pencil in the rhythm of the choir club almost a window adjacent from the library away made it seem less boring. her head couldn't concentrate on the paper she should be writing as a form of punishment for some act she didn't even commit. no one would have guessed she was in the wrong place at the wrong time, but who cared. as long as anyone is around to be blamed with by any adult who was too lazy to listen, why not?

scribbling some more words, she put down her pencil and finally read out loud, in her mind, the content of the most unfeeling apology letter. addressed to the teacher who seriously thought she could pull off the prank, complete with what she felt like the best words strung together to sound like a kid wrote it with a mind changed for the better.

it read:
today i don't know what time it was, but i broke the school trophy case glass.(that was a complete coincedence, she was just passing by, like all victims of coincedences are doing, passing by.) i broke it with my bare hands clutching the heaviest bat from the baseball club i could find. (the idea was she found it actually far away from the crime and was thinking of bringing it back to the club.) i (this was the hardest part, finding the right reason to put in her excuse.) was pissed off by the defeat of the game last week, i have never mentioned this but i have had anger management for years and have been bottling it up. (complete lie, but it was better than saying she didn't do it, and still they would box her ears for lying the truth.) i finally cracked up that was why i did that, and i found the defeat of our schools team the best way to show them all in one go without hurting anyone else. i am completely sorry for doing it and by spending my time in the library under the supervision of mr.Layt i have finally found the error of my ways. (complete lie. the teacher just spent his time shouting at her for being a rising delinquent and left the half of the time for her to think. she didn't even learn anything, just gained a full head ache.)

"now all i need to do is to give this to mr.Layt and get on to my community work, or what ever physical punishment they've got." said Tapeta under her breath.

the clock ticked until the last minute of her hour and there she grabbed her things waited for a few minutes until the library doors knob clicked and it opened to let mr.Layt in.

"finally. now where do you think you're going??" spotting her get ready to leave pose. "get your ass down. you won't go to any of your class until we say so." he said as behind him the p.e. teacher ms.Tanara walked, still looking buff and fierce in contrast with mr.Layt's lazy dung like sneaky appearance.

"sit back down Tapeta," said ms.Tanara, with her voice so mild you could never feel any anger, a contrast to her buff like authoritative look. "the detention is over, hand your write up to mr.Layt and we'll announce the rest of your punishment after class."

Tapeta willingly gave her letter, "yes, ma'am."

mr.Layt grabbed it contemptously, as if she was lucky ms.Tanara was there to stop him from further giving her more of his life knowing point of views in life, which no one actually cares, lecture head aches. frowning back at his very annoying poser good authoritative teacher ass, she was dragged back to normalcy by the p.e. teacher beckoning her to her next class.


it could have been better if no one insignificant cared for anything that she did. no, instead all of the worlds kids in her year would completely meddle in her feat of superb and awesome act of rebellion. throwing those annoying glances that felt more like spears made of blunt wood piercing her front, back and side. deafening her ears with those nasty tongues made out of fluffy moss and mushrooms out of those wild wet humid toilets.

she could wait for a few weeks for it to subside, but the scar of that scapegoat living lie would live on. too bad it would live on, and she was made into living as a scapegoat, frikkin, lie.

but underneath those hefty comfortable life of being teased and taunted to her fullest annoyance, was there ever a surge of wanting justice from the wrong doers stupid wrong doing blamed to her?

"no," she told her best friend under the school bleachers, eating there lunch busily hiding from the noise and bustle of the normal hyper students of the school. "do i look like i want to?"

Henryeta, frowning so much her pudgy face would have made the softest pillow, said "i don't get you, i would have wanted to know who was the real culprit you know?? it's unfair."

"i wouldn't mind either, just getting this attention. its way much better than being known to be nothing." said Cisca, the only person sane enough to know the feeling of how to be noticed in the best and popular way as possible. "of course, like being feared. it's like the same with being praised."

of course who wouldn't receive exasperated looks if the way you comforted someone was in the way of selfish egotistical practicality. just in time a ball whizzed from the court and hit the bleacher seats so hard that it slammed all senses of safety between the three friends that they hurriedly ran away to another place to eat. giggling in between mouthfuls of their food and beverage while running there little feets.


Tapeta groaned loudly as she saw herself being dragged to the faculty room by mr.Layt, her annoyance from his presence succumbed by the nervousness she felt in facing the faculty. suddenly realizing, what if they called her parents, she would rather be the escaped criminal than the scapegoat now. much better she would have been hurt by the shattered glass or she could have escaped by hitting mr.Layt's groin with the bat after being witnessed holding it, then running for her life into seclusion some where far away, safe.

"i bet your real scared now huh?" said the teacher to her, "those defiant eyes of yours are gone and i could tell you're really serious in finally learning your lesson now."

inside her mind she suddenly couldn't tell if he was being sarcastically annoying or wisely consoling, whatever it was it didn't feel any better to hear words from a maniac adult who looks like a pedophile. like time could have permitted it to pass by faster, it didn't and she would have given all her allowance savings just to make it faster that she wouldn't want to feel that stomach churning, no less than redundant, feeling.

arriving inside she found herself face to face with a student a year ahead of her, his eyes looked like it was pleading but he smiled nicely, something to redeem him of his sober look. he sat in front of school guidance ms.Nice, her face in that chinese like solemn way, looking over the new comers. behind her stood ms.Tanara her hands holding Tapeta's letter of apology to the school.

"you are very impressive liar Tapeta, too bad your lies not as convincing as the truth." said ms.Tanara to her, actually to the letter like it was Tapeta herself, with a small smile on her face.

all that she could do then was just go with the flow.

Friday, September 24, 2010

oh siiiiiiriuuuuuusly~~~

well now ain't that dandy... i haven't had the time to think thoroughly for so long... i feel like i need to for some annoying random persons fault... but i just let it slip and say its just a funny joke~

okay scratch that part forget that i've ever even said it... of course im bothered... im a single effin hopeless romantic with a knack for cute couples... and it pains to say my heart can wrench for any sweet reasons... i just let thy tsundere have a go and tell off on anyone...

Thursday, September 16, 2010

i guess i just felt placid

finding it hard to comprehend her anger any further, i have been noted that at some observatory point from some quiz ... i. am a person void of fights, suppressed angers yes, but never found the will to really fight back... i find it... pointless

Thursday, September 9, 2010

Ec Tisia and its effect to me

its a song from a famous line of game named Ar Tonelico, yes it's that game where there are alot of singing as well... and nice world graphics idea... its amusing me to the fullest extent that i feel so... i dunno... hyped about it... its one of those fascinating songs that makes me think of the world of lady Eternal (in her universe, sorry for the fictional blasphemy) Gods daughter and Jesus sister... she's a born goddess and fact is she is like God, so much, that to abate the loneliness she's been feeling she created the Universe known to her world as Alternate...

originally this idea came to mind when i was hypothesizing some random theory, w/c i did not originally develop but assume that others have already, what if my friends were to like have a different universe where there dead brothers wouldn't be dead and would be alive and that at some point this and that you know some fate served different in front of you... yes very vague story telling but if i told it now it would take me forever and i bet my mother would suddenly pop out of nowhere between 1 in the morning telling me to sleep *slapforhead*

so there this song reminded me two of the most important inhabitants of lady Eternal's universe, the child born from a race of immense knowledge and curiosity of all lady Eternal's creation, and the other child born from the race that bore the most hatred towards her or something close to cursing her... if i told you there history i bet you'd be sleeping now...

so basically i'm very fond of them both since at some point my idealism of a woman and a man are both of them and at some point they are the representation of my own philosophical point of view and behavior towards man and woman's intimate relationship...

i describe them both in love with each other... yet far apart, like they can stand independently... they have misunderstandings and feuds but drama couldn't possibly sneak in there system, well part of their life is on an eternal mission to serve lady Eternal... but sides that they have the free will to be with each other, spend time and such but they still have to follow lady Eternals commands of saving there universe... blah blah... so there i have greatly tried summing it up the best way possible... but it has been long since i last drew them and there love though vague may be the most eternal one in this world i have created...

YES THEY ARE A LOVING COUPLE!!!! (aaaaaaaaaaugh T_T)

anyway i just wanted to post the song... LOL

Monday, September 6, 2010

happy to finish the outline


but strictly speaking i should have been half way coloring it if it weren't for the fact that i am having trouble with colors~ its a snippet... or more like THE major part of the chapter cover for the character High's Scene, he goes first on roster on the chapter introduction since er... i sort of wanted a vague explanation of sorts... sort of his past and reason, and sort of vague introduction to Hi's pendant predicament... but i won't be betting much since he looks completely different there since he was a wee bit centuries younger...

i'm half way through the Scene 3 and i'm already famished from ideas *slapforhead* its a dilema i am bound by~~

niwei i need to go and be on desk mode (like mah partner in OTL says)

sides this story is also part of OTL but of course thats what i call our duo OTL ... it's not because were a failure, but OTL represents the line of our friendship where as it has gone deeper than i have imagined it to be~~ she doesn't know about this but i guess keeping it as a symbolism for my self can't be tha bad a secret hihihihihihihi

Monday, August 30, 2010

its completely confused

lets just say there is this trigger that caught me completely excited off guard and quite giggling with excitement like the odd creature i am... but thats why my brain seems like its over active, its not... my brains implanted idea of a hearts emotion is... its driven, its being pestered by an idea... an idea that could be real... and when i come to an idea my mind never stops unless i say this outloud like a genius who discovered unicorns does exist between the breeds of men and horses

do i know you?

Friday, August 13, 2010

Over True Love

YES finally it is the tiiiiime!!! no its not the end of the world...
see these days me and a friend of mine have been busy collaborating for a comics we intend to put online... a webcomic, but its only a oneshot, the big idea in it is its a collaboration between a duo called OTL or what we would call the comics itself, since we also intended to enter the indie comics industry...
its just both of us Shiyami and me has wanted to try and fill in our gaps of need to develop ourselves by gaining the experience we never had in our dream of field of work which is the graphic novel/ comics industry... in her case i think its manga...
actually i just want to contribute as a writer for her unfilled gap of stories for her OC characters her Teen Detectives which she has been coming up stories in her mind since... grade 6 i guess, remember in our country most elementary grades reach up until 6, a student is accepted at the quota age of 7 by then any kid would be 12, except for my case i was accelerated... niwei back to the main story...
well stating bout the crazy idea how it started would take long, so the shorter version would be... i got tired of admiring the efforts of those indie peeps thats why i decided why not take one patient huge step to our ideal~ the comics world... altho picking the grounds we can work on to is hard... i have decided to start with the webcomics first... altho print would be next archiving it online is a good way to know the possibility of our comics er... career... or our talents

so to er... avoid lengthening this article its time to introduce our first collaboration as a duo of indie peeps OTL: Shiyami &Jhear collaboration... let me present Over True Love: a teen detective one shot, (sort of introductory work to the teen detectives story is what i think)


the story mainly revolves around these four characters, Dotah, Chiyaki, Haseo and Kiyori... its a confusing and sad love story between Haseo and Kiyori, about the doubts of the future to become and Kiyori the antagonist~ (if you wanna know the story you should read the comics XP once its released)

well mainly three from the five main teen detectives will be in the story Shiyami, Ruri and Shiro... which is actually a sort of eye opening story for Ruri and Shiro's love affairs in the original...

so far i have only given a vague detailing of the story but its a good archiving start~

well wish us luck about this comics *crossfingers* its a
good start~




Picture note:
image1, Dotah-number 2 kind antagonist side kick
image2, Chiyaki-desperate antagonist
image3, Haseo-happy person poser
image4, Kiyori-the sad victim
image5, from left to right, top: Shiyami, Ruri, Shiro(involved in the story)
Bottom: Yumi, Hitaro (i hope i got it right) the main teen detectives in the story X3

Monday, August 9, 2010

its like romance only better


no this illustration is not my epicness treatment of romance or the ideal romance... but i wish i could make it sound romantic~ no these two creatures exist to be each others equals and without each other both of them wouldnt quite get what it means to walk on better grounds... yep, its two of my epic made up characters... OC in laymans term, original character... one's a guy and the other is a girl, High and Hi... originally they were representation of both my persona's that i have created in my college days... or imagined... originally Hi doesn't look that big and High isn't as highly feminine as he is now~
both of them lives in a world crossing borders between the freakishly weird to the sanely normal...
there were also original specified information about the two of them, Hi is a two foot five year old kid who likes to play with shiny sharp objects, most of the time cheery and without a doubt mischievous, and High is his nanny, a sixteen years old boy who was sent into Hi's ancestral house to work while he is unoccupied for the rest of the summer days...
High was originally a high strung boy in his teens, often the butt of all the painful games Hi would usually do~ but he never did get to be angry at her for doing all those painful things for there was quite a place in his heart for his five year old charge... although i never got to the story i made a small introductory mini comics about him that i have lost now in my... er... archives
High in the illustration above is different from the original High, he is a sensitive effeminate boy (although it originally shouldn't have any gender because of his anti-matter like existence) who have lived a sheltered life waiting for his master to arrive and get him back, he retained his caring persona and his only un-redeeming point, Hi on the other hand also has a different personality in this other Fantasy themed characterization, although she still retained her fondness for shiny sharp objects, these things weren't used for any kind of butting joke but for self defense... she's a much lesser mischievous person but drastically dense and very rude... at some point just utterly brutal, but with a tiny sense of compassion and empathy...
subjectively speaking there are two kinds of Hi and High, one is of the normal paced that lives in just a random world where it could be compared to the present day time world only with so much of weird and normal things put together~ on the other hand the fantasy ones have a much more deeper sense of life and purpose than the gag type ones...
its completely over thunk actually~ but in due process and time i could prolly make a better character of each other... i mean they are so alive in my head i couldn't possibly contain them... T_T but then again there is drugs...

you could view the previous versions here SilentNitingale deviantart gallery its an old gallery, and to think i haven't updated it for so long~

i din't know alot of things are fun

but they suddenly give you that fucking notion of over thinking... because it suddenly gives you a rush of so many jumbled up thoughts...

yeah but then its natural thinking for the kind of person i am... my friend gave up figuring her self... i just automatically thinks about it... how can i switch of a program built in me like saw dust automatically falling off scraped wood~

Monday, July 19, 2010

I'm quite busy thank you

i'm actually focusing on just trying to finish this random one shot i've thought of... it's originally a far cry from the type i draw... but then i have always been busy with trying to do stuff that i am A FAR CRY from originally doing...

so then now i focused myself in updating my pathetic social life and playing a game for kids online... its weird i mean i'm that much of nothing to do... that i ended up playing an online game i just fancy... no wonder i just eat anything that twinkles in my eyes and makes my taste buds dance the jigg plus salsa in one...


well
Moshi Monsters isn't exactly the best game you'd ever encounter, it's just like neopets you know with a few years younger in age... and a few graphics better... to play it is like neopets as well... but i don't like neopets since i'm really not fond of it... and its already that famous... i kind of like the idea of it being cute monsters, but you know they could make alot of variety of monsters for the children to play with... oh and did i mention it's a kid safe game, so when ever i post online in their forums they have to screen my post first, approve it stuff like that before they put it in the topic... i laugh at it but i totally respect it... but since i can't benefit something fast in the forum socially i just play online thats what i am aiming anyway~~


ITS MY MONSTER BIMBORED~~


ITS THE MAP~ ITS THE MAP~ to moshi land


Monday, June 28, 2010

Zombies on your Lawn (gotaddictedlol)

yeeeeeeee~s it's the famous song theme of the game Plant's vs. Zombies *rar* lulz. honestly though i have never played the game, i just watch my sister play it and i kind of like the designs and cute plants fufufufufu... although i'm not saying that i don't want to play the game it's just i doon't feel like it... it's either i might get addicted or i'm just too lazy to *slump* ... buuuuuuuuuuut i got addicted to thesinger of the theme song... yaaaaay the real sunflower *cuuute* Laura Shigihara (or ishigihara... gah forgot her name, whenever i listen to her speak i just couldn't quite tell) in her naturally cute cute voice singing the theme song of Plants vs. Zombies *rar*

Friday, June 25, 2010

really amazing...

i doubt that i'll never get over my habit of reading manga's/manwha's with interesting characters and story's really it just keeps on making my day happier... yup... i'm not addicted... NO I AM NOT ADDICTED...

Tuesday, June 15, 2010

*headdeskX10*

i am now currently in the slumps, with no source of money since i am now officially bumming myself out... not even planning on putting money in my own account... i stand corrected dying in this very seat while listening to music in my old playlist trying my best to think of a good thing to do... well yah i thought of updating my own blog journal... but now i feel honestly dead tired... thinking too much... i couldn't find my mojo and im stuck with my old mojo being drained from my very dead brain... golly i think i'll just sell coke and see if its still the fad for drugs in my country... *ting* XD

Tuesday, June 1, 2010

this is really baaad

im falling down to my procrastinating self again since before we came to vacation bohol-cebu style tour... its draining my will to finish "gods failed attempt at mercy" gaaaaaaaah

Sunday, May 30, 2010

back from the dead




maaan did i miss writing stuff online i mean really now... i was on a three day vacation somewhere in the local and prolly would be nice if there were other things to do aside from enjoying the tour and view, things to do that i am really interested in... really... i already killed two books on our way on the first day that by the end of that night i simply said to myself that morning that came after that... oh hell might as well enjoy the tour instead of being such a loner kill joy...

well to top this off here are tiny proofs of the vacation through pictures taken by yours truly by phone...



ze sisters bf ^^^^^^

ze sister^^^^
see i was there~~ took em pictures with my self-bought phone... oh the top two pictures were the view on the place we stayed in nice eh small garden to the ocean shore... it goes high tide in the morning but low tide at night... its really nice :D
the rest of the pictures i took with my own cam that i brought with during our trip... though i loved the part where we were looking over alot of natural and beautiful un-city-nized places... like the forests and that man made forest we passed by on the way or after we went to the chocolate hills site...
really its the best place i'd love to build my house... in the middle of huge man planted trees in the middle of a high way far away from civilization... the best place to stay and rot... at least i could give myself net in that place... but it'll be damn expensive DX
that educational butterfly park... where i found that lovely word gy---nodite something... butterflies that have both genders of male and female only they cant produce like a hermaphrodite... stuff...
well i learned alota things that i have completely stored in my wee box of stored knowledge... its a good thing actually... it felt expensive though cause the two (mah sis and her bf... mostly her bf) bought alota stuff on almost every shop we passed by on the tour...
i kept myself from killing him but he's not that close to me to be killed... all in all i liked it, it was fun grazing around and looking at some sky with no buildings covering it... the best...

Sunday, May 23, 2010

it must be tiring

it is actually the few days ive missed the internet i have spent dilly dallying over my friends on an occasion we should often do... or atleast make of something... i dont know if i got anything from it... i got completely tired... and i have a picture of me as an evidence sigh... i am completely defenseless in front of them...

anyway i know in the innards of my very internal organs through its viral cells down to the most invisible particles the soul can be that she's not being completely reliant and confident of what is to come and is her self... its saddening that maybe i just want to know what it is... but ive given respects therefore i wont be asking much...

while i on the other hand wants to waste all my life imagining and trying my best to love the things i want and need to love... like the comics im making or the story im writing the dialogs and all that supporting im giving my friend with... i need to find a way for her, a way to help her atleast... i want her parents to realize that not all things can go badly... its hard because my parents themselves where the one to realize it... its setting someone free thats really hard at some point...

but eventually in the end when everything will be gone and they have all moved on even without me... i guess i'd smile and say id hogged them far too long and when they really need to go on even death could not stop me from saying i would be sad but i would be happier than when they have decided to move and never forget about who or what i am...

until the day comes that i would be the one to leave and never forget... i should be the one to stay and would never be forgotten... just simple as that... romantic is a way ain't it...

Wednesday, May 19, 2010

Baby(justine bieber) by Charice



well its really a last song syndrome type of song of Bieber the boy wonder with such a femininely like 'wonderful ' voice... as i see from this point of view, a partially skeptical and void of popular stuff person... so far i dont hate the song nor i love it... i like it just the way it is rhythmic-ly exhausting repeatedly in ones brain... but this version of the world renowned child singer through some runner up contest suddenly became big like the sun star because of good pr and manager skills, Charice Pempenco (hope i spelled it right) sang it quite well and i'm glad to say she sang it the way she should and didn't at least kill it... though i feel frustrated when she say the "oooh" and "noooo" part ... i dunno must be the way i see her mouth do the O with er some lower lip of hers bending inside... *thinks* well just sharing this modern day popular teen sensational song to my blog...

Monday, May 17, 2010

always a random thought

it always is... i mean if i wanted to cry... i would have cried but i can't i don't know why... i feel so crazily confused of things right now... it's amusing hahahaha i know theres something wrong but the way i cope with it involves just letting me habitually go crazy happy over things... its messy shit... i know it's all confusing un-confident thoughts... its all jumbled up into ulterior wires of sorts and i'm not even helping to untangle it... theres something disturbing inside of me, am i excited, am i supposed to be saddened, intimidated, angry, jealous, mainly i would be confused... i mean really confused and tired of it... it's just really unfair if you look at it but what why how should i keep on being a darned alive person...

Saturday, May 15, 2010

god character design


got time to finish the designs for the god characters in the comics :D but yata heres the final draft but will not be showing any kind of progress here such as colored as i am seriously finishing the comics... so tadaloo keyboard for now..

Friday, May 14, 2010

loads of stuff



since i did say i'm soon going to post stuff for my comics "God's attempt..." here it is as promised *drum roll* a small sketch of my two main chars :D both of them are females but physically one of them lacks the ... hormone growth to be a female... but they are both female and i tell you both of them are just.. don't mind the bug in the middle i was practicing how to make a bug that eats alot of human rotting flesh ... ventually all i can do is make a fat cute one... the other heroine who's as dead as a duck is the curly haired one on the left she's the one being chased in the whole story... makes life happier if she was still alive then...

next ones some minor practice for the god's but ventually i ended up just doing one practice of it... it's pretty hard to make a monster thats smoother than any other lizard with armor that defied the medieval norms... did i mention that... they are as thin as any arm i could possibly draw and are capable of other stiff things... because personally im having a hard time making proper joints... but i did start practicing on the heroines face... yes that short haired guy looking face with wide eyes ... yeah thats my heroine...





this ones a sample of the setting or just a sample of the pillar... actually i'm opting the setting to be a forest at first but thought make it more symbolical by mixing tower type buildings with squarish windows with random human shaped shadows peeking on through them while there were some stray trees... to give it more like what the gods dont care feel of where they battle...pretty busy putting on squares and ink around it plus messy much







finally a sneak peek on the frst spread page i made... still messy though... i haven't moved on to the second page but i scheduled it this night but so far all i did was play Pet Forest which by the way is good and cute...play the game and view the pics good day :D


Thursday, May 13, 2010

but there sure is+lucky by britney tribute


just finished the first page spread sheet of my comics draft that i've been planning to finish ... yaaaaaay... so far i can't show any evidence that it is finished but still i'll be cheering on myself so far and will be sketching on the second page soon...

so instead of posting about it i'll be posting about the song Lucky by the one and only Britney Spears *bgm: cheers of crowd* weeehooo!!! NOW... it's been playing in my head since awhile ago and thought how overly infamous have been the acts of brit since the last time i heard, although i know she's doing fine and that she's trying her best to live normally while making money now with concerts and alot of other singles she must be making right now this was one of the songs i liked... alot... ever since she came...
although i have been LSS-d (last song syndromed) with alot of the singles she made, this just proves her tiny voice is such a dragging force of such popular claims to have to make me remember over and over her songs... this was one song above all that she made that i really liked... i also liked the essence of the song itself, not overly romantic and just not too ambitious... just stating the overly obvious...
about fame and the what not... i'm not saying it's a sincere song from her heart or anything, that i could not possibly know... but seriously i still liked her then when she still had the essence of sweetness or sweetness was over that, before she got herself, corrupted or something... this statement maybe pure but if i were a guy i would still love the sweet brit more than the daring one now... she's talented and she's over doing herself too much before she got her babies... but for a better turn in life she'd learn it i guess... it's like she's living the song in a much more traaaaaaaaaagic way than it should be during those infamous times...



Wednesday, May 12, 2010

being overly dramatic

there are just some times that i can't keep up with scheduling myself ... i need to constantly remind myself that i need to do this not because i have to and that its very heavy obligation that needs further sitation of a responsible person but because i want to and i feel too... its not just a job... i'm creating a kid...

Tuesday, May 11, 2010

seems like its been obsessing week

its fine if i just keep elementarily spotted on one place and smudging my bludgeoned head aching mind to just stay still while a pulsatingly splatter its remains somewhere and everywhere else but seriously... while cyberslacking and minding my fucking brain to stop throbbing from overly hammering some kind of pestering sickness inside of it... like some worms eating inside it... ugh... i would mind i ti stopped... i might want it checked... ugh... i feel so paranoid... PARANOID...

oh and since i already posted this might as well add that I MUST WORK ON SELLING THAT FRIGGIN LAPTOP!!! AUGH!!!!

Monday, May 10, 2010

this was random



I am currently talking to my friend Meh right now and was inquiring about elections day, she was telling me about the lines and all thats taking time and randomly posted a SoFA Manila thing and was kind of checking it out right now... although it's interesting i don't think this kind of thing is meant for me right now since i'm short of money and i'm saving money to buy some of the techies i need in life... a.k.a laptop... can't work without it ehehehe... heh
well its a close call now only a few more K's and i'm right there on the doorstep... its just i'm also searching for a new job and its pretty hard to search for one... really...


but oh well who said i can't go and have fun in the middle of it... i am now currently browsing over The Ink Squad site that my sister passed by on an ad in an airline magazine my mom bought home from her vacation in cebu... wait bacolod... hahahahah... hah... it's an interesting site and alot of people must be posting there works here and printing those shirts and selling online... its a good business... and i'm kind of brimming with ideas that can be submitted so i'm currently abusing the techies in the office while doing my job so that i could do one gehehehe... (the ink squad site: see photo no.3 fig.3... see that big bird... and the words the.ink.squad. ... yeah thats the one)
while waiting for a miracle on some other things i have now been brought back to reality... will be submitting no soon than this week by waiting if i can muster up the courage to bring or use my mouse to illustrate of puto shop... but oh well it's interesting and it pays... have to do my best...

Friday, May 7, 2010

im enjoying the fishes


yes those fishes there on the right hand corner of my blog... yes i'm just enjoying giving them there crappy orange food... it's just i'm sure some other people do enjoy clicking on them and watching them eat those yummy morsels like real lives fishies should when they see potential food on the surface not minding over feed...

Wednesday, May 5, 2010

playing Sacred Seasons2

curently i've been playing the second version of the game Sacred Seasons, or second installment what ever works... when i first played the game was on Kongregate which is a site for gamers... hmmm it's sort of like Mochi games site but i don't remember what their site's called anymore... i used to play Arcuz there before i ended up engrossing myself on some stuff at work since i can't concentrate well if i play and do stuff on work at the same time...
i was on a whim and search of a good mmo game thats browser based and stumbled on it while browsing through the mmo category... it kind of got into me but never enjoyed clicking all through the whole game, if only they made shortcut keys and stuff... its quite got a little low grade animation for the games sake but it was okay for a flash game, though it kept on bringing me pain in the ass... since i have difficulty adapting and leveling my character cause of the low experience they give and the premium or special items are acquired only by gold... i still think its a good game

Sacred Seasons 2 got better graphics than the other one, with a somewhat same game play but pretty impressive development of about everything from character design(tiny bit) to the mapping of the places(alot) and alot of easier quests and good rewards... except still since this game is still is its in beta state there are still minor adjustments that should be automatically done... i wont be stating any aside for the unequip button... i am still bitter about it and other monster dying glitches... it still works fine...

over all its a good browser based mmo to play but ofcourse you'd have to have all the patience of a true bummed out nothing to do gamer to reach more than 30 lvls in this beta game...

aside from that "God's failed attempt at Mercy" comic panel thumbnails are finished and later on i will be posting the scribly thumbnails and some other character design for the two kids and the two creatures involved in the story... I WILL DO IT CAUSE I WANT TO!!!! RAAAAAAAAAH