just going to ramble a little wee bit here... i should completely reconsider the idea of blogging... it's becoming like a diary, the kind that people shouldn't be exactly reading... but i'm already used to typing in it... since i do feel the vibes that no one will read unimportant rambles from it...

on the other hand i shall announce... PAMAGAT OTL'S TUMBLR SITE *prerecorded crowd cheer plus applause* anyway it's going to be an art blog dump dedicated to the details of the OTL projects~

and as i said this entry will be a ramble so not much posting of linksies...

but i just feel completely exhausted for some reason, is it about that email i want to send to oh no manga about the anthology series, i wanted to inquire first about specifying the procedures but i have this other thought of just sending the required stuff they... listed... although i will not loose anything by sending it in... i still feel like i want to clarify something about their procedures cause at some point i feel like they have made me feel vague...

or is it the fact that i have this dampening depression that seems to come out of nowhere... although i don't feel that sad or unsatisfied... or sad... or grumpy, or... i'm doing my page work for the webcom... it's just...

i tried my hand on water colour, the actual water colour, again today... i still have it but i'm as slow as i used to be, which feels like a bad thing for me... it shows that i didn't grow that much since the last time i planted that seed... i guess maybe that's whats making me frustratedly... bored? *pinch nose bridge*

i don't really know if this kind of thing should even be shared or discussed with anyone *exasperated flinging of arms*... but in my mind it's not big of a deal to be discussed heart to heart to... to anyone in particular...

the wedding invites lolol

hallu hahahaha, i've been commissioned by my sister to design her invite for her wedding next year and here's a tiny peek... well actually this si what the invite would look like... if it's laid flat. it's some kind of three fold invite that's a wee bit smaller than the size of a short bond. i'm quite satisfied with this. in fact... i kept on giggling through out the process... no it's not because of the word "kilig" the meaning of my giggle is like a hihihi type of laugh... i mean what the fuck essence. i don't really do stuff like this but it's cutsie cutsie and i'm trying not to really laugh that hard... because it's cutsie cutsie... hahahahahaha

anyway onto some self update, PamagatOTL will have i's chance of debut in komikon, hoping for this november. also a new title named Openended, specially made for komikon here, here.

also paused MDKP for this OTL oh please my baby komiks forgive me~~~

Martin the Warrior

no this might not be a kind of review, but will just be a tiny post about my sentiments to Martins story before he founded the Abbey. good lourd i never knew my prayers would be heard someday when i wished that i could discover atleast that Martin will have a love interest. but sad to say sir Brian Jacques just broke my heart by killing her in the end. *weeps*

still it never stopped me from appreciating her existence, this just proves that for once Martin the Warrior was destined to be with someone his heart ached for, well aside from the aching for justice, sadly it may seem that another life time might be needed for them to meet again.

i do believe that the hero from the book Redwall is the reincarnation of this great mouse warrior, if i remember his name was Mattimeo? goodness it has been, what? two years or three years ago since i bought the first book Sir Brian Jacques has authored and since that point until now i have never been so glad in my entire life to have stumbled upon it. i don't care if it sounds like his books are for adolescent or young readers, i still like them!!!

but i couldn't really prove it since i don't live in their world. anyway i need to check again on the list of books of the Redwall series since i need to know which ones i still don't have or will be eager to look for. although i have already had my eyes on the title Tuggerung, i regret not buying it the same time as the Martin the Warrior when i passed by Booksale.

on wards to a public update of my life, currently multitasking on things such as comment/editing of the comics of my friend. currently willing to volunteer myself into making her background artist so that she wouldn't be bothered by making backgrounds anymore. not a poor thing, it's just that she seems to have trouble with making backgrounds. but my proposal is still on hold... well just because.

next is update of my comics Children of the Eternal Spring: Missing Door Knocker update. so far i haven't left off Scene 5. |||OTL good lourd.

anyway a little more patience and we'll come to the end of this arc now~~

Goldilocks and that one dead bear

lo and behold my latest hobby doodle... Goldilocks and that one bear... sorry i don't have the genius knack to title it much better than... that... anyway i posted it in my art tumblr but haven't posted it in my dA, well... i have been neglecting many things around me... but i am trying... anyway it's an art doodle pause before i continue inking my comics... which i by the way now being delayed hugely because of yours truly(not goldie)

random rants inc.

this will be just a random rant... of sorts...

i have this confused tug at my... uh, in my... head... when i read something... i know it's jealousy... and i just erased that article i wrote awhile ago about attention whore-ism blah blah... but it's just me and my self battles so... no it's not excusable for myself to feel that... there is no reason...

besides i don't even own the people, the reason for, my being jealous about... anyway...

random rant gone... must walk dog... peace out...

Kaiba, just finished watching it

writing about the last thing i watched is totally something normal for a blog, which i have been doing for ever since. so here i am, copy pasting the opinion i wrote from my plurk.

but before that here is an info about the show.

Kaiba is the story about a boy, from a world where memories can be transferred from a desired body, who fell from the upper faction of their world down to the underworld with his memories lost with only a locket of a girls blurred(i think) picture in it and a whole on his chest. it's his quest to know the truths behind his loss of memory, the locket, and who he was.

further spoiler info: Kaiba wiki page

as i quote from my plurk: (note: you might want to highlight this OTL)

" the sorrow... the world... the imaginative way it didn't look so offensive... it was quite frankly nicely rendered... eventually i now understand why it made a low rating... it's because in the real world this kind of thing wasn't as interesting as those emotionally enhanced hormonal shows... with a lot of cuteness or bad ass... cuteness OTL i dunno why... badass and cuteness should be in one show OTL also the art style is too unique for the taste of those who has closed there minds to (should've said modern but still the next parts are also my opinion) ... uhm that almost generic anime style i see these days... in fact, almost like popolocrois, i like the art style... which actually is like that anime i couldn't fucking remember the name is... almost cartoonish... but in this matter who cares whether it's an anime style art and that it cam in japan so basically the art style should be stuck to those almost generic ones...

... i'm rambling..."

well that's about it...

truly, i liked it...

it's a recommended watch~

MDKP comics update

aaaaaaalrighty~ it's le comics update... the last time i updated about my comics, Children of the Eternal Spring, or CotES. i felt like i haven't moved an inch from that update... WHAT COULD I POSSIBLY DOOOO... MY LIFE IS BEING SUCKED OUT OF A... a fast purpose? aaaaw it's just the wussy talking... right now i am completely excited to say that the story is nearing to the action parts... (if it can be called an action, YES IT'S AN ACTION... schiiiiiizooooo~) anyway here's the last page of the latest update~

... but somethings wrong with blogspot right now so here's the LINK

the story hasn't neared the end of the introduction arc... even the drafts... i'm stuck at scene 9 at the drafts... and it's been like this for many months now... i know it's not nice to rush creativity but i wish creativity wouldn't lounge too much...

oh well Pansi here signing out~